🎶I have no song in my mind as is but I sure do enjoy classics lately.
🍟I’ve been craving fries past two days yet I’m enjoying a vanilla yoghurt a good friend treated me with.
😊I feel freer today; the fact that I’m typing all these means I’m headed somewhere..nice…
The month is almost over and so is the year and I have been dealing with writer’s block since both began. I’m not even sure you’d get this, but knowing you can do something but not having the strength to do it is indescribable. I have compared it to being stuck in an elevator because just the thought of it makes me cringe. It drained me, and the worst I did was trying to think of ways to get myself out of this state instead of just writing. So I low key feel like I previously wasted time and words that I would have otherwise shared with y’all. For this, and especially for serving you the oh so annoying silent treatment, I am sincerely sorry. Yes, even though sorry doesn’t cut it, I hope my words do. This could just be the beginning of a journey we’ve all been waiting for.
I put a lot on paper and also type a lot, but unfortunately, I haven’t been able to finish anything that was about me. Funny because that should’ve been the easiest to write, right? Wrong, it wasn’t and I was getting frustrated. I would vent to my friends and even cry when alone because I couldn’t get myself to understand why I’m not writing! It drove me crazy and I even logged out of my blog (ooh poor baby) so that I wouldn’t have to look at the diminishing number of site followers and viewers. I even sat and thought of closing it down and instead focus on other things.
And focus I did; I love a few things apart from writing and it wasn’t so hard to get myself occupied. Scratch that, distracted is the word; I only had enough time not to think of the reasons why I’m not writing. It still hurt though, I remember this one time my friend was telling me how much she’d missed reading my blogs and I teared because I thought, ‘Me too.: Each time I’d talk about writing my heart would break a little too much.
One thing’s a fact however, that I knew that at some point, I’ll get back on my feet. I would find my magic pen and wander away to the most surreal parts of my mind. I held on to this little hope that this dark period would end.
This is the most exciting part…. It has come to an end!!!! I mean, daaah, if you’re reading this then obviously I’m back to my writing spree. I’m literally getting goosebumps right now btw, yikes!
The past one month, I have found myself in very meaningful conversations. You know the kind where you leave there all rejuvenated, energized and nothing short of encouraged? Most importantly, I was challenged. Challenged to have more faith, believe a little more, not much. And to trust God through my actions. See, the key to trusting God is in acting and we cannot act defeated when His word tells us we’re victorious; more than conquerors! We cannot act poor when we have been called Royal Priesthoods! (I wanna shout right about now!)
Of course it feels good to think about these things but applying the Scriptures is the task. Our faith is tested in our actions… Our speech, what are you confessing? What are your daily declarations?It’s unbelievable, but I started writing this a months ago, and I’m still here. Deep down I kept thinking of my next word, next line and if it didn’t feel right, I didn’t bother to type it. That’s the thing with perfectionists, we over think everything trying to make things perfect. We often forget that perfection is a target in motion. Achieving it is almost impossible, buy we get close.
So I was motivated by a lady I haven’t yet met, well not officially, so to say. I’ll probably write more about her in future, but for now…. I’ll just say that you might be an inspiration to someone and you have no clue about it. You might even be wondering where your life is headed or you might even be on the verge of giving up. Well, don’t. Someone might be wishing to be on your lane right now. Why not rock it?
I hope to do this more often, even as we start doing things a bit differently. I’ll update you guys though, as always.